An Exciting Future
An overriding sense of happiness. A sense of confidence. A sense of fulfilment. A little butterfly in my stomach. It’s adrenaline. An exciting future.
‘This story of discovery. The last five months. They have been nothing but turbulent. I tracked my emotions. I noted every discomfort and grievance and tried to articulate happiness. I recognised change. Never have I ever inspected myself. This journey will continue. There’s still seven months to account. In less than half-a-year — I discovered the ugly, broke through the pain and emerged out the other side. One word: magical.’
I’d like to start today’s blog by looking back at a state of mind.
A state of mind I carried through my blogs. My emotions and recognising that it’s possible to revert at a moment’s notice.
Learning lessons. Taking chances. Failing.
They all need consideration. They all need attention.
Today, I recount some previous blog title’s and reflect on their significance in the growth of my emotional intelligence.
In some of the following, I use an acronym to publicise the blog. I no longer adopt this principle, but it featured for some time.
1) Could Have Done Better
I wrote this on the first day of the new calendar year. I was in a period of uncertainty.
I arrived back in the UK days before and struggled to see past the next week. No job. Back to ordinary.
I started to regret all I didn’t do, forgot my happiness and struggled to articulate my achievements.
The start of a somewhat tumultuous time in my life.
2) Everyone Starts Somewhere
Still jobless. I had a resurgence of self. I recognised my skills. I still worked in freelance writing and earned a pound here and there.
I spoke about the early popularity of the blog. I talked about how I didn’t expect much and wanted to have an outlet to be creative.
A spike in uncertain and self-reassurance that everything would work out.
This time was a serious psychological grind.
3) Do You Even Like Yourself?
Based on a video I saw, I took some anger out and produced a commentary which deprecated my existence.
I struggled to find positives in a crippling life.
I look at this article now and wonder. I wonder because it’s not that long ago yet the feeling has changed.
I like myself. Much more than ever before.
Still jobless at this point.
4) I Did It On My Own
I got a job and was proud.
It was like I had forgotten the last month yet acknowledging its complexities earlier that week.
A fresh start, turning over a new leaf.
Progress… finally.
5) My Self-Confidence Story
I talked about more personal issues and struggles.
I opened up and embraced the vulnerability.
I recognised the power of my platform and helped to inspire others to take action.
I didn’t realise at the time but a crucial point in the daily blog history.
6) All The Feels
After some weeks of equilibrium, some highs and other lows — this was the last time which I can recount a time of pure confusion.
An interesting account of the rapidity of change.
Almost bipolar.
I think the last five months show a lot about millennials. Our emotional intelligence and the volatility of its development.
The past is in the past. While it may haunt me, sometime in the future, I can only focus on the future.
It’s a bright future. Especially the next month.
I am attending the OECD Global Forum on Responsible Business Conduct in Paris, France on 20th — 21st June as part of my internship. I received the confirmation today.
I am talking to an unspecified number of secondary school students on QMUL Geography and urban sprawl in mid-June.
I am speaking at City Hall on a panel for headteachers, as a case study of best practice, and will share my thoughts on strong thought leadership in the modern world.
I still have a month at my internship. I still have some work to do.
I visited my next internship destination today. I was impressed by the standard of the company and am excited to start in August.
On the flip side of all this excitement, I said a farewell to another study abroad friend today.
Keri, pictured above, was my ‘buddy’ at QMUL and she spent her second semester in London (well mostly over Europe and Africa, but besides the point).
She didn’t have the most excellent time while she was in London due to numerous issues, but her travelling made up for it.
She went everywhere, and I caught her rushing to Iceland once, a rushed Keri is not a talkative Keri.
She’s a great friend, and after many small goodbyes today, I don’t expect to see her for some time.
My plans to layover in NYC this summer en route to Texas fell through.
Unless I make a trip over to the States again, I would have to rely on her appearance on this side of the pond.
We’ll be in contact though, I’ve already started to draft the telegram (inside joke: she’s awful at texts).
I wish her well and have no doubt she’ll be an excellent physicist.
I’ve got an exciting future ahead. Great plans only made great by the people.
People and their vibrancy is something I live for — I really do.
I’m happy with myself. Confident in myself. I don’t care for opinions. I know where I’m going and glad to have anyone along for the ride.
An exciting future.