I’m (too) Relaxed

For once.

I’ve been lounging.

Picking up tasks that got left in 2018 and bringing them back.

I’d like to daily blog, but even I know that’s not actionable.

Maybe it is.

I did it for a whole year.

But there is a small sense now that because no-one (or significantly less people anyway) is watching, there’s no point.

But I feel that’s only because the daily blog was mildly popular.

Now it’s just me.

Truly.

What I always wanted.

But I haven’t been daily with it.

In truth, I wanted to give my dissertation my all.

But it’s been two days since I handed that in.

Now I’m just waiting for the world to catch up.

I’m excited for Monday.

Yep I said it.

The world will once again be busy and I’ll have my place.

My place at the table.

This year I’ve decided that I will have a place at the table.

At some table.

Somewhere.

And I will work harder.

Smarter.

Be more informed.

Learn more.

Help more.

Be the same person amplified.

2018 taught me a hell of a lot.

How to be myself.

Why me is better.

Why me is powerful.

How me can change.

How change is good.

How change is exciting.

How change means discomfort.

Why discomfort is only temporarily bad.

It also taught me I can finish something.

The last few days have been largely boring.

I haven’t done a lot.

Now, just before writing this, I started to read for one of my modules coming up this semester.

It’s got THAT bad.

I mean it’s okay.

But this is something I usually don’t do in advance.

Usually after.

Or just before.

But I just realised the beauty with this blog.

No picture.

No upload.

No time restrictions.

No rules.

Just me.

But I suppose I thrive off structure.

That’s why Google Calendar is a Godsend.

I guess this ends this blog.

I’m (too) relaxed