Taking Care
I find it hard to balance the necessities for absolute functioning. Something is always missing. But I suppose it makes life interesting. Taking care.
‘Abundance exists but it not just in the things you want to do, but the things you have to do.’
Today was a reboot.
Literally.
I’ll explain.
But the question in my life remains.
With all this work, what am I sacrificing? And is it detrimental to me?
My insistence on a sane mental health as a driver for long term success and prosperity is an emerging thought.
But sound physical health has existed to increase life expectancy.
The real killers are not just those that can hurt you from inside your head, but those that can disengage the body completely.
I have become victim to the disused, but still paying gym membership.
I cut my healthy lifestyle when I returned from Fort Worth.
It’s been all-go since.
While I’ve maintained a healthy state of mind, my physical health is paying the price.
Today, shocked me and my Mum.
The latter I’d rather not repeat in the future.
While parking my car, I popped my shoulder out and back in.
It was only for a second, but the pain was excruciating.
I managed to put the handbrake up, put the car in neutral before taking off my seatbelt and stumbling out of the car.
When outside I rested up against the side of the car and felt massively disorientated.
I knew that if I was going to pass out, I better already be on the floor when it happens rather than letting gravity take over.
I found myself to the wet ground and lay there.
I closed my eyes for a millisecond and woke up again.
Scary for my Mum more than anyone.
Whether it be a result of physical inability or muscle inflexibility, it was a wake-up call.
In the next few weeks, I’ll be focusing on my dissertation over anything else.
I will be finding more time to exercise and eat better.
Although I don’t eat too badly now.
I will need to do stretching exercises and be more mobile.
When I’m outside, I’m able to very active either walking or running for trains or just in between pedestrian traffic.
When I’m inside, I’m huddled up and don’t move often.
Given that I’ll be inside more often than outside for the next two months, I will need to make time for exercise.
Today was a strange day.
One that the dots don’t add up, but links can be made.
I should be more mobile.
Use my gym membership or just cancel it and run outside.
Something needs to be done.
Taking care