Yes I Can
This week proved a lot to me. About how I see myself, about my character (its benefits and inconsistencies). And after careful thought, yes I can do it.
‘It takes some time to realise your ability and to realise your motivation. It takes an instant to know that you’ve reached that point.’
This week did a lot of things to me; made me feel emotions that I hadn’t expressed in some time, not out of suppression just mere absence.
This week excited me.
This week broke me down.
This week deprived me.
This week enlightened me.
This week grew me.
This week made me realise that I’m human and I have a purpose.
For months, I’ve been practicing what I’ve preached.
Since I realised that the words I wrote in this blog made sense and should be applied, I’ve been on a mission to do so.
I’ve written about highs and lows. I’ve written about the experiences who made me the man I am today. I’ve written about my shortcomings and we’ve heard from others about their impressions of me.
This is the 232nd blog in this yearlong series.
Imagine within 7 days, I experienced reassurance without anyone telling me.
I experienced hope. And, first hand, saw the beauty of humankind; its intelligence and complexities.
For the first time since I returned from America, I experienced the grind.
Desperately trying to squeeze time out of every pore and not squandering on time to meet new people.
I met people this week that I had imagined existed, but never been acquainted with — now I’m in disbelief that I know them.
This week I realised that ‘yes I can’.
I can be myself.
I can survive and working hard, being kind does lead to good things.
I can exist and have a voice.
People care about the youth voice and its power.
This week, I set my sights on what I want to do for the rest of my life.
It’s a layered end-place with countless barriers to cross.
With my visions firmly locked on that utopia, it seems impossible to divert.
I’m sure I will and it will be an adventurous detour nonetheless.
The grind is somewhat undefined.
It can be 100 hours of work or 0 hours.
The work is defined by you.
The results are seen by others but you first must accept that the work is required to achieve as such.
I’m ready for the challenge and what it might bring.
A lot of this plan has already been thought about.
I said to Cooper when I met him;
‘Imagine you have to build a puzzle. You have the strategy or methodology to build it, in that your character and perspective on the world around you allows for that, now you need the puzzle pieces.’
I think that can be applied to myself and many others.
We’re all just trying to grab pieces of our own puzzles.
Whether it be land grabbing, internship hunting or power leveraging. We all need to find some relevant pieces to make the puzzle fit.
We may never complete our 100 piece puzzle.
Only few of us will reach that stage, where we reach 100 years old and still remember the methodology.
I’m thankful for this week.
It’s given me something to focus on.
I’m trying to connect two dots that have no reason to be put together.
But once I do, people will ask why it wasn’t done sooner.
Yes I can.